Time is running out, yet even with such intense desire to make something happen, still nothing can be done in such a short period of time. Then guilt starts to burst out in you, for not making the best out of it when you had it. This feeling is so painful, it makes you just wanna dump everything aside just for another extra day. Sometimes I figure, how can actually peer pressure works so hard on someone. Birthday and farewell, isn't it obvious? Where is the love? I never felt so sure about the choice I made before, never regretted and so glad. Anyway Em, take care alright? I know it's not easy and it's definitely something new to you, but at least I know who is fully supporting you. All these while, Rub did not forsake you before. Sometimes she told me she misses you. But without telling me all the time, I know she misses you all the times. And your two "tough" sisters, I can definitely feel how much they're missing you already. I go back and start thinking in the dark. I can feel the pain everyone's going through especially Rub. It's so torturing. I used to have sisters leaving, but there are differences. The closeness is nowhere to be found. Unfortunately, things have gone haywire a little, urm, okay maybe a lot. But still, I just want you to know, blood runs thicker than water. Your family is still your family. I'm not going to even try to steal one bit. I don't know, I have so much to make up to you, but I don't know where or how to start. Just take really good care of yourself there. It's gonna be hard, cuz' I know I can't just simply drive to bring Rub, your sisters, and the one you wished to see for you anymore. I would like to apologize now if I have offended you in any way. Everyone misses you a lot already. This girl over here, is the beginning of where I am now. I thank you so much, and you're the intro to everything, I mean such as Lalagang and all. Anyway, I ain't gonna lie, this girl is a little badass also. Ngek! You're not expecting it right? Muahaha! When first met, I can't never possibly hear you swear. Freaking evolve into an evil ass already. Haha! Just kidding, Westlife still .. su.. rocks la. Take care, and make sure you got eat enough, else we'll be here waiting for you. Kick your ass to the max. The future is a long way to go, I'm pretty sure someday we all will reunite. Hopefully forever. Okay? Silly turtle-neck-gal-who-sat-on-my-leg. We'll pray for you. Ciao cin ciao!

P.s: Happy 13th month anniversary dear, but I know this month is a disaster to you. Not going to make it big, but I love you a lot.